Meditações - I’m in the barricade hearing the clock thickening you

Time After Time

(After Cyndi Lauper)

I’m in the barricade hearing the clock thickening you.

    Autumn encircles a confusion that’s nothing new.

Flash back to warring eyes almost letting me drown.

 

Out of which, a picture of me walking in a foreign head.

     I can’t hear what you said. Then you say: Cold room,

the second that life unwinds. A tinctured vase returns

 

to grass. Secrets doled out deep inside a drum beat out

     of time. Whatever you said was ghostly slow like

a second hand unwinding by match light. Lying back

 

to the wheel, I shirked confusion. You already knew.

     Suitcases surround me. You picture me too far ahead.

Yet I can’t hear what you’ve said. You say: Doldrums,

 

some secondhand wine. Love, you knew my precincts.

     The stone house turned out black, the scenic tunics

were deep inside. Who said home? Oh, I fall behind.

 

That very secret height blinds. Lying like a diamond,

     the cock-thickening of you: hunchbacked arms, eyes

left behind. You’ll picture me walking far, far ahead.

 

I hear what you’ve done. You said: Go slow. I feebly

     bleed out. Matthew’s sermon turned out to be glass.

I wander in windows soft as Sour Patch. No rewind.

 

But something is out of touch and you, you’re Sinbad.

     That second date totally mine. Lying in a vacuum,

the thickening plot thinks of you. The future’s not new.

 

touchdown. Lights. All those celebrity behinds.

     A suitcase full of weeds. You picture me coming to.

You: too close to me to hear what you’ve already said.

 

Then you say: The second wind unwinds. Doves whistle,

     halving their dovely backs, watching out windows to see

if I’m okay. See it, the dulcet moment? I’m like thicket

 

tinkering for you. Fusion nothing you knew. Flash back

     to seagull-beguiled eyes. Sometimes talking to a barren

lad. Such music so unbearably droll. The hand is mine.

 

Random picture frames off the darkness. A Turing machine?

     Scotch-taping through windows, stolen from deep inside

rum-beaded thyme. You say also: Behind sequins & hinds . . .

 

And I’m in the barricade hearing the clock thickening you.

     Clematis enclosures, walking with news, pollinated by a

secondary grief, while something reminds you of our love.

Adam Fitzgerald